2014 has been a strange year for me. A good one but a strange one. In many ways I have learned nothing new but in other ways I have learned so much. I have been reminded of so much that God has done.
- January of 2014, I was in the aftermath of losing people who I loved very much. Nobody died but they left and suddenly I didn't want to get close to people. I got terrified, that's the only one to describe it, I was terrified to get to know anyone because I didn't want to get hurt again and I was suddenly scared that the people I was close to still would leave. Something I learned all over again was that if Jesus could love a selfish and unfaithful person like me then I could certainly love people if I was loving Jesus.
- Something that was happening all throughout 2014 was that I was trying to be more thankful. Each day I wrote in my notebook one thing that I was thankful for and I could only write one thing once. I didn't finish the whole year, I got to January to July maybe but even now I still think in my head "okay so what good thing happen today that I haven't been thankful for before?" It keeps me grounded. Remembering all of the little things I have to be thankful was a great exercise and I am so glad that I did that.
- March to December of 2014, I'm not sure how to describe this period expect that I was experiencing the joy and amazement of the Gospel like I never heard it before. I was feeding on milk, resting in the simple facts and promises that despite of all my issues and all of struggles that I was dealing with, sins I was being convicted on, that Jesus still loved me and would never leave me. His goodness, his greatness, constantly being reminded of who He is. I realised what a strange mystery the Gospel is that all-powerful, mighty, holy, and good God would love little, ugly, sinful, me. I realised that even though I had head-knowledge that God was my Father and his love is a gift and we don't have to work to receive that, even though I knew that, I wasn't living like that. I was living as if I had to work hard in order for God to notice me, to get Him to love me and to a certain extent I do that with other people. The promise and fact that He has adopted me into His family has filled me up with so much joy and I feel so much lighter now, I don't have the same weight on me as I did before. I was constantly learning the same thing over and over again; I was learning the Gospel all over again and guys it's been such a precious gift, such a precious time of learning. I never want to stop learning about the Gospel, never want it to go stale again.
so 2014, I have done many things with you. Thanks for being a blast and being a good year. Let's pray that the next one is equally good.
- January of 2014, I was in the aftermath of losing people who I loved very much. Nobody died but they left and suddenly I didn't want to get close to people. I got terrified, that's the only one to describe it, I was terrified to get to know anyone because I didn't want to get hurt again and I was suddenly scared that the people I was close to still would leave. Something I learned all over again was that if Jesus could love a selfish and unfaithful person like me then I could certainly love people if I was loving Jesus.
- Something that was happening all throughout 2014 was that I was trying to be more thankful. Each day I wrote in my notebook one thing that I was thankful for and I could only write one thing once. I didn't finish the whole year, I got to January to July maybe but even now I still think in my head "okay so what good thing happen today that I haven't been thankful for before?" It keeps me grounded. Remembering all of the little things I have to be thankful was a great exercise and I am so glad that I did that.
- March to December of 2014, I'm not sure how to describe this period expect that I was experiencing the joy and amazement of the Gospel like I never heard it before. I was feeding on milk, resting in the simple facts and promises that despite of all my issues and all of struggles that I was dealing with, sins I was being convicted on, that Jesus still loved me and would never leave me. His goodness, his greatness, constantly being reminded of who He is. I realised what a strange mystery the Gospel is that all-powerful, mighty, holy, and good God would love little, ugly, sinful, me. I realised that even though I had head-knowledge that God was my Father and his love is a gift and we don't have to work to receive that, even though I knew that, I wasn't living like that. I was living as if I had to work hard in order for God to notice me, to get Him to love me and to a certain extent I do that with other people. The promise and fact that He has adopted me into His family has filled me up with so much joy and I feel so much lighter now, I don't have the same weight on me as I did before. I was constantly learning the same thing over and over again; I was learning the Gospel all over again and guys it's been such a precious gift, such a precious time of learning. I never want to stop learning about the Gospel, never want it to go stale again.
so 2014, I have done many things with you. Thanks for being a blast and being a good year. Let's pray that the next one is equally good.
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