So here is a question for you. When you learn something or hear something or see something that really moves you-and I'm not talking about hearing a nice story and going "oh that is so nice and inspirational" and going on with the rest of your life being the same old you- I'm talking about the things that are true, things that maybe scare you, things that are hard to hear but things that you needed to hear, what do you do with them?
I understand that I need to learn and I want to learn, the problem I have with learning hard things is when I am in the midst of learning them. I'm all for learning and growing until I am actually in the midst of it because I'm a fickle and stupid human being and learning is hard. This is what I do when I'm learning the big lessons and often it's hard because I am forced to come up with the uncomfortable version of myself. It isn't comfortable. I have been thinking about something and that is maybe the small lessons add up to big lessons. Small reminders add up to the big reminders.
Last weekend I went to the Calvary Chapel Woman's Retreat here in the UK and I was looking forward to it, If you read my last post then you would have guessed that I was a little bit stressed and worrying a little bit. I went to the woman's retreat with nothing to lose really, or that is how I felt and I needed the break. When I found out that the theme was 'To Know Him' based on Philippians 3:10, I didn't think about it much, but it was exactly what I needed to hear.
I needed to be reminded that my purpose is to know Jesus.
I needed to be reminded that the right perspective comes by knowing Jesus.
I needed to be reminded that I needed to dethrone the fears that were ruling over me and also my control that are trying to control my life and realise that Jesus needed to be on the throne in my life.
I needed to be reminded that the answer is not in loving ourselves but in knowing and trusting in Jesus.
There was something that the speaker Cheryl Broderson said that really struck me and she said something along the lines of this. " I have needed every affliction and every trial that I have ever gone through because every trial and affliction has grown me and brought me closer to my Jesus." oh man, that was a big one. That really struck me, the thing about all of these things , I already had head knowledge of them, I mean come on I'm a pastor's kid + I grew up in Calvary Chapel which = lots of Bible Knowledge. However God really spoke to me there, while I was surrounded by lots of people and it felt good. It felt good to hear God speaking to me, it felt good to be encouraged by the sermons, by the woman in my church, by some of the pastor's wives who I know who are practically family away from family. It was good to be reminded again. I forgot that I needed reminding of my Jesus. My precious Jesus who I so easily forget, guys I am learning that even though I have no clue what the next step is, that knowing Jesus is the center of my life, is the purpose of my life. Fear, Insecurity, Hopelessness, and Not Belonging, those demons have no place, no foundation in my life, that doesn't mean that I don't feel them because I do, I do everyday but they are not the center of my life and I don't need to put them on the throne for a second, not when the King of kings is calling me to come and worship Him. Something that I need to be reminded on more often, He calls me to worship and to know Him.
I understand that I need to learn and I want to learn, the problem I have with learning hard things is when I am in the midst of learning them. I'm all for learning and growing until I am actually in the midst of it because I'm a fickle and stupid human being and learning is hard. This is what I do when I'm learning the big lessons and often it's hard because I am forced to come up with the uncomfortable version of myself. It isn't comfortable. I have been thinking about something and that is maybe the small lessons add up to big lessons. Small reminders add up to the big reminders.
Last weekend I went to the Calvary Chapel Woman's Retreat here in the UK and I was looking forward to it, If you read my last post then you would have guessed that I was a little bit stressed and worrying a little bit. I went to the woman's retreat with nothing to lose really, or that is how I felt and I needed the break. When I found out that the theme was 'To Know Him' based on Philippians 3:10, I didn't think about it much, but it was exactly what I needed to hear.
I needed to be reminded that my purpose is to know Jesus.
I needed to be reminded that the right perspective comes by knowing Jesus.
I needed to be reminded that I needed to dethrone the fears that were ruling over me and also my control that are trying to control my life and realise that Jesus needed to be on the throne in my life.
I needed to be reminded that the answer is not in loving ourselves but in knowing and trusting in Jesus.
There was something that the speaker Cheryl Broderson said that really struck me and she said something along the lines of this. " I have needed every affliction and every trial that I have ever gone through because every trial and affliction has grown me and brought me closer to my Jesus." oh man, that was a big one. That really struck me, the thing about all of these things , I already had head knowledge of them, I mean come on I'm a pastor's kid + I grew up in Calvary Chapel which = lots of Bible Knowledge. However God really spoke to me there, while I was surrounded by lots of people and it felt good. It felt good to hear God speaking to me, it felt good to be encouraged by the sermons, by the woman in my church, by some of the pastor's wives who I know who are practically family away from family. It was good to be reminded again. I forgot that I needed reminding of my Jesus. My precious Jesus who I so easily forget, guys I am learning that even though I have no clue what the next step is, that knowing Jesus is the center of my life, is the purpose of my life. Fear, Insecurity, Hopelessness, and Not Belonging, those demons have no place, no foundation in my life, that doesn't mean that I don't feel them because I do, I do everyday but they are not the center of my life and I don't need to put them on the throne for a second, not when the King of kings is calling me to come and worship Him. Something that I need to be reminded on more often, He calls me to worship and to know Him.
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